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Okay...enough! I technically took 2 weeks to complete week 4, and I do not want to move on yet because I don't feel like it was a good week. But I need to. I don't want to do core cardio and balance for a week straight, so I've been putting it off (week 5). I've eaten a whole container of M&M cookies in 2 days. This is NOT okay. I'm getting those depressed mopey feelings again. This can NOT happen. done. TODAY.

So, I just have to decide if I'm doing week 4 over again, and making my end date even farther away, or if I just keep going. I think maybe I'll just keep going. NOT looking forward to doing one video every day for a week, and I don't really feel like I need to take a week to "recover" from eating cookies, but, that's what they want, so I'll do it. Ugh.

Getting really sick of myself, but can't fall into my self-loathing patterns from before. I can't go back there again.

olympic thoughts...insanity week 4 days 2-4?

Okay, well I did my midnight workout Tuesday night as mentioned in the last post, I did not work out on Wednesday, and Thursday I worked out in the morning before a full day of events. I had a job interview- they liked me, but I'm not sure if they're willing to offer the flexibility I need. Whatevs. Had an audition today (they're so few and far between this time of year, can't wait until the fall!), and did not do insanity today. I ended up helping my Dad sand cabinets for 3 hours, which is a RIDICULOUS arm workout. I did a couple of ab exercises and pushups while watching some swimming olympic races, so I don't feel like a total lard, and I'm just going to do the rest of this week (I think I'm through to day 5 or 6? Not sure...) of insanity tomorrow and Sunday, so that Monday I'm back on track. Monday starts week 5, the week of max recovery. Yikes. NOT looking forward to it.

The olympics have really inspired me, though. I see these people with gleaming muscles, incredible speed, strength, agility, and discipline, and I think to myself: It's definitely not genetics. Have you seen Michael Phelp's mom? Many of the parents are on the chunky side (No judgement!), so that makes me think, it's just because these kids have worked REALLY hard for a long time. My long time only started in June. Gabby Douglas was worried because she had only trained for a couple of years under her new coach. Years. I don't want to be an olympian or that obsessed with a balance beam ever in my life, but if they can do that stuff, I can certainly make it through 60 days of insanity and eating well. Geesh. Let's get it together. Maybe I'll qualify for 2016 summer olympics in trampoline. ya never know.

insanity week 4 day 1ish?

Okay, so clearly my plans were foiled. It had been three days since I worked out at all, and I was feeling REALLY down on myself, but I went through some stressful couple of days, helping a friend move and all that. Also ate pizza. Delicious failure.

And today was no exception, going on the 4th day of not working out? This can NOT happen! But the day got away from me and before I knew it, it was midnight. But I had just watched women's gymnastics finals, so...I was inspired. And I did plyo. I don't even know what day that's supposed to be, probably Saturday last week. Whatever. I kicked butt. I got my heart rate up super high very quickly, so I had to take longer breaks, but my form for each exercise was better than last time. Slowly but surely!

So, back on track eating-wise and exercise wise. At some point Monday I made a pomegranate greek yogurt pineapple banana spinach smoothie, which was DELICIOUS. Definitely doing that again.

Tomorrow, more insanity, and will try to see a friend's show, go to the zoo, and get my life together! :)

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Okay.

Yesterday I started plyo, got through the warm up and the stretching, and started watching mens gymnastics on the olympics...and did not make it through the rest of the workout. Today I helped a friend move all day long, so I didn't work out today either.

Plans foiled. I'm frustrated, and when I get frustrated I want to eat junk food and not the loads of fabulous salady stuff and veggies and health that I bought the other day. So today I had pizza for lunch. And dinner. UGH! I am dreading this week of equity auditions, I HATE equity auditions. Especially dance calls. Not like I ever go to dance calls ever, but there are a couple on my list this week that I couldn't make the singer calls. Errrrrrgh. Cranky pants!

I know it will get better, I just have to stay committed. Not sure how I want tomorrow to play out. If I get up early, sign up, do insanity, go back for a dance call, or just go to the singer call (which they recommend if I want to be considered to go to the dance call), so...bleh. Will try to figure it out.

Off to a rough week, feeling really fat (regardless of the progress I've made). Can't go backwards.

Guess not every day can be super pumped I'm feeling awesome kind of days. Hopefully tomorrow will be.

gettin behind!

Okay, well...here's the scoop.

Monday I did Saturday's workout, hoping Tuesday would be Week 4 day 1, but I didn't do it yesterday. So I'm two days behind. PLUS, I decided to go B's workout session, she's training to get certified, so her hour long classes are free. It's a mix between insanity, pilates, weight training, and death. Much harder than insanity, because she kept telling me to keep at it, improve my form, etc. Which held me accountable, and for insanity, I can take breaks whenever I want. BUT, I don't want to get behind with insanity!

So here's the plan.
Thursday: week 4 day 1
Friday: week 4 day 2
Saturday: week 4 day 4 (skipping recovery)
Sunday: B's class

Monday: week 4 day 5
Tuesday: B's class
Wednesday: B's class
Thursday: week 4 day 3 (making up recovery)
Friday: week 4 day 6
Saturday: OFF
Sunday: week 5 day 1

aaaaaand finally back on schedule. I will be working out, it will just take me two weeks to get through week 4 because of B's training classes.

Yay! Gettin' fit y'all!

Insanity week 3 day 6/7

So, I'm technically supposed to be on week 4 day 1, but alas, going to Ohio proved to be more than I could handle trying to add in workouts. I did manage one workout while I was there, but I really would have liked to get in both. So that means I'm a day behind, and doing Saturday's workout today, Monday's workout tomorrow...etc. Will probably skip recovery (I just hate it!) so I can catch up on the real workouts. Not that recovery isn't real, I just don't feel guilty skipping it.

Anyway. Ohio was good, spending time with family is always a good thing, even if it's sometimes stressful.

So, I don't have a scale, which is unfortunate, but I checked my weight on several scales when I got back from tour, and in checking it this weekend, I'm down about 10 lbs! It's not exact...because the measurements weren't on the same scale, but there's definitely a difference! Woo! Serious inspiration to keep going. Yay!

Pluggin' and chuggin' for the week, let's do it!

Insanity day 5 ish

This week I traveled from the city to NJ, PA, through WV and into Ohio to see my grandmother. All tht travel and lack of routine made me think I wouldn't be able to work out, but I think I'll fit in all the insanity workouts (other than the recovery vid, which I hate). I did yesterday's video tonight, and I'll do today's vid tomorrow in NJ. Not a lot of time, just wanted to send a quick update. Also, lots of slow walking on concrete today, so my knee is very sore. Eep.